The unacquainted affection

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i felt the responsibility of being a caring boyfriend when i was 11, but i only have the guts to tell her when i was 13 but it was too late.

i was single until i got transferred to a boarding school. For some reason, it was easy to get around with people. got a few love notes too. and ego strikes.

i came back the following year only to know that most girls are taken. and there was this pretty librarian. i was gonna confess to her, but rumors saying she was taken. and i believed that. so it never happened.


i felt the heat of going out alone with a girl, which most people call it a date, except we hang out as friends. i felt something. the feeling that i ignored for almost a year although we're in the same class. just seeing her in class everyday made me happy. i was 18.

but to think of the unnecessary responsibilities that i will have to bear; her feelings towards her ex and mine to think of her having a guy before when I never had one, and the  amount of cash in my wallet, and most importantly; to think of how long the relationship will last.

which is why I chose to be unacquainted.

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