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Just deleted one heck of a draft. if i really wanna let go of it, i shouldn't even write it out. to read old posts is not like reading a novel, or an essay. because it actually happened.
life is just too short to worry over things like this. if i were to do drugs, to start smoking, to drink, to punch somebody or even commit suicide, it was the perfect time. hours ago. i literally felt nothing inside. like God never accepted any of my prayers nor has or will He ever grant any of my hopes and wishes.
But... i don't know. just driving around the neighborhood and try to perceive the surroundings differently, it does help me a lot. after all, i am not even close to becoming a successful person in both worlds. Allah knows what's best for me, though its not easy to accept the fact.
i hope this chapter of my life will lead me somewhere better. i feel way a lot mature than before. and i will never forget you. you were the very reason for once, i was true to myself when i admire someone. i swear that feeling wouldn't ever change my friend, and i will never give up :)
"what doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger"
.
Just deleted one heck of a draft. if i really wanna let go of it, i shouldn't even write it out. to read old posts is not like reading a novel, or an essay. because it actually happened.
life is just too short to worry over things like this. if i were to do drugs, to start smoking, to drink, to punch somebody or even commit suicide, it was the perfect time. hours ago. i literally felt nothing inside. like God never accepted any of my prayers nor has or will He ever grant any of my hopes and wishes.
But... i don't know. just driving around the neighborhood and try to perceive the surroundings differently, it does help me a lot. after all, i am not even close to becoming a successful person in both worlds. Allah knows what's best for me, though its not easy to accept the fact.
i hope this chapter of my life will lead me somewhere better. i feel way a lot mature than before. and i will never forget you. you were the very reason for once, i was true to myself when i admire someone. i swear that feeling wouldn't ever change my friend, and i will never give up :)
"what doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger"
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