hiatus

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i haven't blogged for a while. can't think of any good reason why, apart from my usual "there's nothing much happening" excuse. even had to read back my previous post to figure what happen since.

alhamdulillah, i'm most thankful to Allah that i passed the overall assessment, allowing me to proceed with my dissertation, and God willing an MSc!

so many emotional thoughts came through, days before the results were out. i was so damn afraid i was gonna fail. i know it's possible. each year there were people failing. it's awful. i've felt what it's like to fail big time! and failing this time around would mean pretty much the end of the world to me; as dramatic as it might sound.

i don't expect people to understand. not when they don't dive in the same course i'm doing. but after all, i accepted the offer in the first place so i couldn't really complain. i always remind myself that we humans are created with hardship. and with every hardship comes ease. whether it's work, raising kids etc we will be judged on how we deal with it. a powerful reminder so i don't get full steam ahead of myself thinking i'm better than anyone. i'm definitely not.

but again just looking back at all the assignments, computer projects and 10 exam paper in 2 semesters! passing all was huge. huge enough to move me to tears. i definitely wouldn't say it was entirely my effort. even now i still think my efforts don't worth the marks i got. i believe in divine intervention; my parents' late night prayers asking for whatever is good for their children, and He wills it.

it's already ramadhan tomorrow. i think i started this blog some time around ramadhan 5 years ago. i've definitely come a long way. all thanks to Allah, He certainly knows what's best.

 
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