plans

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probably the right mix of emotion (not time) to blog. i was, among millions of others, who was taken aback by the recent #MH17 accident.

because i have, literally, so many plans when i get back home. so many things i wanna do to make up the time since i left. and i'm sure, so did the passengers. 

but what struck me the most, is the idea to die when you're not ready. i'm definitely not ready. just thinking about it i often delay my prayers, my head always wanders off during prayers, i limit my recitations per day, sometimes i just walk off after prayers without reciting du'as and what not. God i'm so shallow.

the accident is definitely a wake up call. that we might not live long enough for the next ramadhan, but we're blessed that lailatul qadr, the night that could make up a life-time worth of deeds is around the corner.

Our Lord, let not our hearts deviate after You have guided us and grant us from Yourself mercy. 

Indeed, You are the Bestower. [3:8]

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